Baby Blues
Current mood: anxious
Category: Life

So, yet ANOTHER lady from our ship has stated she thinks she may be pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I am psyched for ANYONE who has been trying to get pregnant to have actually gotten there. However, to be completly honest it gives me the Blues!

Andrew and I have talked constantly. About this. We both want kids of course. We will be leaving here in 2009, prolly around October, and don't know where we are going yet. We are hoping for Shore Duty. He has 1 more deployment to go through and we really don't want me pregnant through a deployment. He wants to be here through EVERYTHING. Which I find very sweet. We also don't want to have to move with a baby so we'd like to wait until AFTER we move and get settled and then have one. Andrew and I have went through our rough spots, and are finally at a place where we are stokked to see each other every second we can. We are back to being as in love as we were when we first met. Like right now, it's been 5 days since I've seen him and we are both highly anxious for him to come home. I honestly feel like a high school girl wrapped up in her first love. Part of us agree that 1) we want more time for "us", 2) we wanna be moved before we have a baby, 3) well there's not a 3..lol.

We have decided not to get on anything like B.C. IF we haven't gotten pregnant by the time he leaves for deployment, then I'll get on B.C. because I've heard it helps so to speak when you do start to plan. We are in the mode where "if it happens, it happens" and we'll be ready, thrilled etc. But we aren't "officially trying".

GRRRRRRRR......lol.

p.s. I don't want anyone feeling bad about sharing their news...and if I offended anyone I am truly sorry.

"So called people"....
Current mood: annoyed

This is to no one person. This is not meant to piss people off. This is me letting out what I feel, w/o having to worry about offending anyone. If this offends you then maybe you are the guilty party. Only the guilty will take it offensive.

If you are planning to come into my life...then know you are here for the long run. Know that I will be there for you as best I can. If I am going through something, which it has happened before, but I don't forsee it in the near future, but IF it does happen again, be a real person in my life and stand beside me and support me. I would do the SAME thing for you. You may not believe that because I haven't had the chance to do that for many people.

Family is people who are there for you, no matter what you are going through. You could be depressed, you could be deathly ill, you could just be having a bad day...yet, they are there for you NO MATTER WHAT. Same goes for FRIENDS. I grant you with the same respect. I know I do, I know that behind your eyes what you see is not that, but it is.

I am a caring, loving, giving person. As your family and friend, I will be there for you NO MATTER WHAT. 2:30am I'm there, Middle of the day at work...I'm there, running errands...Im there!!!! NO MATTER WHAT...that's what that means! THIS is my promise to you. I expect that back from both family AND friends. If you can't then that means what I vision friendship as is totally different than what you vision friendship as and therefore, we don't match and this is goodbye! This goes for family too! I understand everyone goes through hard times. I'm there for you. I'll be there for you. But that door swings both ways....

Thank you for reading! This has hit me hard, and it's a matter of deleting people out of my life that bring me down, especially when I am already as low as I can go. I don't mean to be harsh but this has went on for WAY to long.

Thanks Again!
Sarah D.

Hi there! There is LOTS to know about me. This past year I have become MAJORLY outspoken and it's gotten me in trouble sometimes. But, who cares! Wanna get to know me, then do it!