April 18, 2008

Dear Friends:

I am so happy in this moment. Today is my Son, Elias' Birthday. I am so proud of the young man that he is becomming.

I remember the moment he was born. I felt instant love and I had no idea how powerful this could be. I promised him in that moment that I would always watch over him... I remember like it was yesterday. And in a blink of an eye he is a young man with ideas of how he will impact the world.

We have struggled in so many ways... and it has been a great journey up to now. There are so many moments that I will never forget. They are precious to me as I begin to reflect.

Sitting on top of a mountain with him, praying together at night, holding him through his tears, hearing him say, "I love you Dad." The lessons I've learned.

I am looking forward to great struggles and memories to come...

Before my Son I was a good man, doing good things in the world. And after his arrival and especially in this moment I will never stop working to make this world a better place. For my Son and for the Children. I am a warrior for the small voice... for all in need.

I love this little man... Thank you to my parents for helping me in those moments... and to my friends for all your support... and to my Mentors who called me out and helped me to become the loving Father I am today.

Happy Birthday Elias... I love you buddy,

Dad ( Pappa Bear )

May 2008

Dear Friends:

I have extreme gratitude in this morning.  I am so happy to be a Dad and that Elias is my Son.  He is the most amazing young man in I have ever known...  I am so happy to have people in my life... Nathan, Adella, Ivan , Graham, all the Men of MKP, Sharon, Ron, Vlad, Jared, and the rest of my friends.  (Nate I am so proud to be your friend... a good father and person) It is so great to meet new people and to hear their thoughts...  Every day my love for music is greater and I am thankful for the Artist that I am in connection with... Amber Ojeda, Earl Thomas, Steph Johnson, and Justus Ewing.  They are totally amazing people and their music takes my breath away...  I love being in connection with other people like Omar of Great Community, who's mission is like mine... "loving people." I know life can be hard... and I have those moments all the time... and  I  enjoy the parts of me that are also doing the best I can for who I am at this time...  I love that I am for the most part honest in all my situations, that I love people past their pain and my own...  I really feel good about who I am and who I am becoming.  I know that this is also a hard world in many ways... and I am doing my best to have a larger impact for the greater good...  I am thankful for what I have and from this place I will make a difference one moment at a time for the rest of my life.  Thank you for sharing some of our lives together... You are all so wonderful...  I am looking forward to the gifts that are in front of me... and in becoming the Man that I am destined to be.

Many Blessings and have a wonderful weekend,

Tim   

 

Dear Friends:

Many blessings to you! I am starting a new blog that I will post M-F and I will be sharing deep insights of transformational work. This is my first time conveying these messages over the internet and I am going to let go of any attachment to what this will be. Here goes...

Please trust, even in this moment, that your pain is not about other people, places, or things. 

Every child is born into this world as an intuitive genius. When a child is young they do not realize that they are separate from other human beings... The example of this is a three year old child with their hand in the cookie Jar.  If their parents get mad, they will close their eyes... because the child's belief is that if they can't see their parents then their parents can't see them.

As the child grows they learn that they are separate human beings. And that they depend on their parents for nourishment, safety, and love.  Unfortunately, during WWII studies were conducted and children that did not get love and affection would die.  This being the case when a child sees an adult having a negative reaction they try to modify themselves to keep the adult happy.  This is called a "Critical Modifier."  So a child will modify their behavior because they are afraid they are going to lose nourishment, love, etc... This creates an addictive cycle that is recreated in a person's adult life.

This being the case, people repeat the same relationships... both with friends, family, and intimate partners, money issues, health, etc...  This is as far as I will go in talking about this...

Many people have heard about the "Secret" or "What the bleep do we know." They are great movies and as one of my mentors said, "The good news about the "Secret" is that it's all true... and the Bad news about the "Secret" is that it's all true. 

The real question is... How does one start to make a difference in their life?  How do you move away from, "Repeating more of the same?" Many coaches / mentors charge hundreds or thousands of dollars to work with people and the truth is many of those coaches are in need of much of their own personal work.  I have studied coaches across the nation and different types of transformational work...  If this is done correctly this blog will become a journey that may be painful at times... and very rewarding.

I will start the process on Monday, March 24th, 2008.  with love and support,

Tim Ney

March 24th, 2008

Every word that I wrote above and every word that I write hereafter is only my own belief.  We all have our own reality and there is more than one way to the truth.  Because of what I do and who I am it would be unfair to align myself with any one religion or ways of seeing. In addition... I want to be clear that many of my thoughts and ideas were influenced by others. Friends, coaches, mentors, facilitators, etc... 

If you believe that, "Everything happens for a reason" or "That there are no accidents in Life," then you are in the right mind set of where I would like to go...

What you think about the most... you become. This is simply "The Law of Cause and Effort." Brian Tracy.  One of my friends told me that, "All men are cheaters." My response. "Yes, that's true. Welcome to your life."  It sounds harsh but the truth be told that if you have this much conviction around your intentions this is exactly what she will attract into her life.  Lots of cheating men... And it happens to be what this person is painfully addicted to and looking for.

Mother Theresa said that she would never go to an anti-war rally but she would attend any peace rally.  She understood the concept of attraction...  It is the energy that you vibrate at... the sound that you are making.

Get into gratitude about your life as much as possible...  It is absolutely the case that you are unique, beautiful, and have a huge impact on the world with the choices that you make in every moment.

I have heard people say, "People change, but they don't change that much..." The good news is that people can change rapidly and in good ways...  That said.  I am not writing this so people can make lots of money or drive a fancy car.  Is that truly who you are?  I am writing this to make only small steps... to help people become the leaders that they are destined to be.  Accept your greatness... the world is waiting.

I am going to make any and all future post as small as possible.  There is no process or facilitation that can be done. However, there are some things that can start to move people in a new direction. 

Next post will be Vision + Mission for your life...  

April 5, 2008

What is "Vision?"  For the purposes of this blog I will say that it is the possibilities of what is in front of you and in the present as well...  What is your vision?  Where are you going and who are you going with?  I have heard coaches ask, "If your life was as good as it could possibly be, what would it look like?"  I would like to approach this from a much broader view and offer that you are part of this world on a much larger scale than your single life or identity... And that all of your actions, intended or not, affect the world in some way.  We are all connected. So if you do not have a vision how are you affecting the world?

There is an exercise to help get you in touch with your vision. It is usually a guided visualization process and you can do this on your own.  Find a place and a time where you can stay focused.  Give yourself about 30 minutes to do this and have fun... You can also play some music (Music a child may listen to) and close your eyes and imagine yourself as a child again... This time in your minds eye, create a perfect world... Where are you? Who else is there? Are people laughing? Are there children playing?  What does it look like? Are there mountains, streams, etc...? Visualize a world that you want to live in as a child...and when you are ready... with your non-dominant hand write about the world or draw a picture of what you saw.  Keep the language simple in this process...

When you are done... Think of a simple vision of what is possible for the world.  What was it? 

For me I saw rolling hills that were covered with green grass and trees... Sun that was warm in the middle of the day and laughing and playing with friends.  I imagined my Mom smiling and putting her arms around me...  So to put this in simple words...  "It was a loving world." Remember to keep this short if possible.

Vision + Action = Mission.  Again this is for the purposes of this blog. What is your mission in life? What are you working towards?  If you do not have a vision of what you want and you are do not have a mission... where are you going?  And to be clear this is not about who can get the greatest wealth or be the best in some activity.  I want to come from a place of making a difference in the lives of others by making a difference in your own.

My mission is the following:  To create a loving world by loving myself and others.

It is simple and it is what I live by daily...  It is really important that when you make a mistake in life that you do not shame yourself for it.  Remember you are perfectly imperfect and we must love both sides of ourselves.  When you make a mistake... forgive yourself and make amends. 

Take you simple Vision + Action and now create a mission that is easy to remember.  Write it down... A mission can change at anytime... You can reword it...and keep it simple and easy to understand. 

Many Blessings,

Tim   

April 9th-

 Our Deepest Fear

(Nelson Mandela, Inaugural Address in 1994, Original test by Marianne Williamson)

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

by Marianne Williamson

Dream of Dreams

I dream of an everlasting dance
Between you and I
While the moon lights the night
And the stars twinkle in the sky
Through your eyes I see the world
And in your arms I am secure
You are the light of my life
And for my loneliness the cure

You are the dawn of my day
The evening of my night
The hopes of my dreams
and the wings of my flight

I feel you close from miles away
And can picture your smile on an empty day
Where are you now I do not know
But with you my heart will go

I wish upon a star
That whether near or far
I will always be with you

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Destiny

 

This was a man of few places
But a man that knew many faces
A man of wisdom, understanding, and strength
Who was just a fool at heart...

He stood in an amusement park
In the company of many but all alone...

He knew not why he was there
But sat on a bench
Where his eyes fell upon The Carrousel

As it spun in circles
He began to dream
And on a white horse a small boy appeared
Pretending to be a knight in shining armor...

He rode his horse with great stride
The man had never seen a boy with so much pride
As the boy rode round and round
It became a circle of confusion
He wanted to reach
To grab the brass ring
To win more time on his side...

Time and time he tried and tried
So very close but yet so far away
And with one last turn he reached again
Farther than ever before
And at last he felt the ring touch his finger...

As he tried to hold on
He fell to the Earth
With a tear in his eye
And a ring in the sky
The man awoke from a dream of reality

A small boy...

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Time

 

Time, tomorrow, they are the same

But one just passes by, the other, He is vivid!

But only if you can imagine! I can.

Time, he is black and white

But tomorrow he is color, because tomorrow becomes memory!

Mystery, hope, these are tomorrow, our dreams...

And we wait, seconds, minutes, of our hour come to pass.

Some day this hour will be mine

And your hour yours, our time must be great!

So many people, so many places, so many questions

So little answers, and so little time!

Time, where has he gone?

Tomorrow, What will he bring?

Rain, soften the soil, rich with a seed, now full of life

This life must die, this life, it is I...

 

God, he steers my path and yours too!

If tomorrow sees us together then let it be so.

In this time together we've shape our youth

May God be with us on our journeys

And Somewhere our roads will meet, I pray...

 

The Fawn  (Tim Ney)    5-12-91

 

Shadows

 

A boy walked through a solemn land

For he had lost his mothers hand

She fell into the shadows and faded away

No one to guide him on his way

 

Roaming through this barren land

With clouds angry in the sky

Still with an empty hand

Wandering the reason why

 

His clothes were grey he knew the cold well

He had heard of Heaven but he had seen Hell

He cried out in pain

The wind howled at his call

He felt of stone and rain began to fall

 

He ran every way he knew but ran to stand still

Gaining no ground losing his will

Lying in the wet sand

He felt the touch of his mothers hand

He remembered the warmth of her embrace

And rose to stand against the rain on his face

He climbed the highest mountain

And stared into the sky

And with a mighty leap

HE BEGAN TO FLY...

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney)  1990

 

I saw her

 

Made of stone and cold was I

Until an angel fell from the sky

A ray of golden sun that warmed my face

Her loving words and gentle embrace

I found my star and was blinded by its light

Her dreams became mine, her struggle my fight

Her eyes spoke soft words of beauty

That I could never deny

I knew I'd love her till the day I die

 

My star grew dim and faded away

Cold I became and cold I shall stay

A friend of mine once said

You never choose the ones you love

I found this true

And always knew

I had chosen a dove

 

This beauty in my life has flown away

I only wish to return another day

But as for now I walk with an empty hand

Wandering through this shallow land

Knowing my star is shining on another...

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 10/9/89

 

"The Party"

 

Did I tell you about my little brother?

No... Keep getting ready.  Comb your hair, brush your teeth

Did you put gas in your car?  You might get lucky tonight!

Do you have enough money?  Hell yah! We're gonna party...

Nice Threads.  Now put more make-up on... all of you!

 

Oh yeah my brother I almost forgot, he's dirty, brown eye's,

He finishes what I don't eat, did you eat enough?  Are you full?

No, well eat some more...

 

My little brother... his lips are dry and he drinks rusty water...

Sometimes I give him money to make me feel better...

You should meet my little sister, but you can't

No, she cried so much she ran out of tears

And I haven't seen her again...

 

Let's watch some T. V. before we go out!

A re-run, they call it The News...

Entertain us, please.  How bout a war or maybe just a few riots

 

I wish my little brother could come with me... 

I guess he could but I won't take him, I'll let somebody else do it

Maybe you can.  Oh that's right were going to the party...

Let me get my make-up on our brothers and sisters can wait...

I have to have a good time, besides maybe I'll get lucky

 

If I could be a color I'd be black and white...

Tell me that's not a color and I'll get pissed

Because I know it's my color

I'm a hypocrite...

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 1991

 

THE PROPHECY

 

And we were told from the beginning that this would never last...

Something about anger and some love leftover from the past...

But for whatever reason our hearts moved ahead...

When we should have been friends and nothing else instead...

 

You told me that you were cold because of how evil men can be

And I tried to warm your heart with all the love inside of me...

There was nothing more I could say, Nothing more I could do...

For when the dust settled... you were still thinking of the two of you...

 

But somehow we went on and me without a clue...

Treating you like a Princess, what else was there to do?

And then there was a whisper that came in the night...

A few empty bottles and a chance to make this right.

 

We were to meet and talk to see if this could last...

But then you mentioned a surprise visit...a ghost from the past.

Anger and pain.... and I am burned by the fire...

Already forgotten because I called you a liar.

 

A friend of mine once said you never choose the ones you love...

And I am left standing like a lonely angel from above...

What did I learn... they ask from these days gone by

And I shout nothing, nothing with tears in my eye...

 

There will be another lady that comes by my way

And I will treat her the same... the same as yesterday.

I am the night in shining armor but if you haven't heard

Rest assured, for I will be a bastard soon....

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 1999

 

Mystify

 

Whenever I look up a shooting star I see

And I always wish together some day soon we shall be

With you no girl shall ever compare

Because of the beautiful moments we share

Your eyes are as deep as space

My love for you will never erase

 

In the heavens you are a queen

And in my life a dream

I wonder where I am at this point in my life

Am I standing by your side or at the edge of a knife

I used to fear of how you felt but now I fear no more

Because I know your knife is in its sheath

And I am walking on the shore

 

I am a fire burning to keep you warm

Shielded from this wicked storm

When in danger you will see my hand

My love will follow you across this land

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney)  1989

 

Untiltled

 

I climb the highest mountains and tumble to the sea

I try to find who it is inside of me

One day I rain, the other I shine

One is evil, and the other is a friend of mine

I see the sun go down

The moon come up

Now it is cold...

I feel the power of the ocean

The freedom of my wings

And the changing of the winds

Behold a new day begins...

 

Sunlight shine on me!

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 1991

 

Untiltled

 

To my beloved friends:

I am painting a picture that you will never see...

It was just me and her and the rest had gone away.

I held her so close we were one.

Together, forever I will never forget...

She was so warm, eyes so full of hope

Her touch so magical...

The kiss I wish would never end...I took such a breath.

And she, she said goodbye

And I will never lay eyes upon her again

I said, "I'd always love her... she didn't listen

But I still love her today and today is never the same...

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 1991

 

Untitled

 

There is no warning to see or hear

Just a deserted silence carried by the wind

Powerful, faultless, certainty of death

But yet so graceful...

 

A fate of which I do not choose has fallen upon me

Now let us see the pain to be endured

That which can not be felt

In this moment... all has come to its end.

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 1992

 

Untitled

 

Know ye, I am one...

You are many with weapons of terror

All of you but not one people...

I have meaning... and I mean to show you.

Someday- you will learn to see

Maybe then you could be one

Some will be blind forever

Only by choice

Some are fit only to die

Perhaps they have never lived...

With hands that never build

And senses that never feel

Where did your love go....

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 1992

 

Untitled

 

People,

 

What have I done? Why do I feel this way?

Justify me and who will be my judge?

Listen to the racket in my hall

A tin machine in my ear

I would speak but you can't hear

Those who wish to be heard

They can not listen

My eyes they've learned to see

And now this pain is beckoning me

I built me a home

Day by day I lay my brick

And you tear it down for fun

Destruct what I construct

Nature must take its course

This water will run

God, I don't want to drown

But they tear it down for fun...

 

The Fawn (Tim Ney) 2/22/1992